Love yourself!

Love yourself!

Don't be too hard on yourself. There are plenty of people willing to do that for you. Do your best and surrender the rest. Tell yourself, 

"I am doing the best I can with what I have in this moment. And that is all I can expect of anyone,including me"

Love yourself and be proud of everything that you do, even your mistakes. Because even mistakes mean you are trying!

Muqqadar ka Sikander!

Rootey huey aatey hain sab,
Hastey huey joh jayega,
Woh muqqadar ka sikander kehlayega!! ... To say in layman, ungrammatical terms...

You come crying, why go crying, enjoy your ride, smile along! ..

Life seems to be giving many reasons to cry, feel sad and very few reasons to smile. No matter what happens, having a smile lets you overcome your sorrows.

I have always tried to balance of being a fun loving person than being a cry baby!... Spoke to my friend whom I haven't spoken since long and who perceived me as a guy with smile and mischievous look!... Even I think the same about me and continue to drive myself the same way but when the dark clouds come in, it does rain!!!

Your outlook towards life keeps the solar system around you warm. No wonder I get attracted to people who seem happy or have a positive outlook. It does matter how you respond when things go south, which they will.

Muqqadar ka Sikander is not easy but ain't difficult either. How easy it is, to not blame your surroundings, weather or people for your misfortunes or failures!... Even if a drunken driver hits you, it's your fate that you were their at that moment. He would have hit someone else if not you... You can blame him, curse your fate... End of the day, don't drink & drive...

Shit happens!, Muqqadar ka Sikander keeps smiling! :-)

Too early to give up!

Everytime I want to give up, there's always something inside telling me to just give it some time!

Fishing for a better one!

On a Saturday, you head Riverside for fishing. Beautiful sky, great weather with good company makes it a perfect vacation.

After 2-3 hours of patience game, you finally catch a fish... Its not the prized salmon or any of its kind but a simple river fish. Though you aimed high, you are happy with this catch as its a fruit of your hard earned labor.

Suppose, this river had a rule that you could have only 1 fish on your boat...

Would you head home with your fruit of Labor OR Throw this fish and hope to catch a better one - as they say "there's lot many fish in the Sea"

It feels like some of life's decisions are also decided based on above answer. The choices you make determines your way of life. As in Kaminey movie "Life ki Watt ussey nahi lagti ki tumne kaunsa rasta liya hai, lagti hai kaunsa rasta choda hai!"

"Why do you keep loving someone who doesn't love you back? There are tons of fish in the Sea"

All I can say is "Just because it's also water, would you drink from the sea?"

Happy Friday!

Barfi! - sweetness of life!

It's 2am, yet my dream train has not yet arrived. An impromptu trip to watch Barfi has reignited emotions which were dormant for many days/ months & even years. Now, both my mind and heart are trying to sort out how to get my dream train back on track... Looks like it is going to be looong night...

Barfi reinstates the fact that Love is indeed blind. It does not care,
# if you are mute, as eyes can express what words can't.
# if you are deaf, as a sense of touch can make you understand what your ears can't hear
# if you are handicapped - mentally or physically as once you are in love, you don't care if your love is fat or skinny, sexy or ugly ... It just doesn't matter !!! ... Your mind starts to connect with their heart that you don't care about materialistic outer appearence but the truth inside!

When autistic Jhilmil feels jealous about Shruti's presence around Barfi, her possession when they reunite makes you wonder that Love does bring about jealousy and possessiveness though you don't wish for it. Your heart skips a beat when they are not around or they are with someone else. Though you feel happy about their life, work where your are not around but it does boil you a bit when you realize they do have a life outside your circle. As long as you can extinguish this spark before it starts flaming your heart, you are good. As they say "Jiyo aur Jeene do", you live as you like and let me live my way!

The other side of the coin is that if you are in their shoes, you tend to expect that jealousy and possessiveness. It always feels good when someone feels possessive about you and are little jealous (harmless) of your close friends. It makes you feel that someone cares for you!

Barfi also stalls my dream train as it tells you to follow your heart & be less materialistic. It also tells you that love need not be equal on both sides. The reason for love will not be same at both ends and in some unfortunate cases, you are just alone in love! And yet, like Shruti, you can continue to love Barfi though he may not reciprocate in similar fashion.

I guess, there is no end to this rant about love. Life moves on, time flies by... Do what you love, this way atleast you are happy!... It is like buying a gift for a friend, don't try to buy what they may like, buy something what you like... Someone remains content & happy at the end!

I need to follow what I preached and try to catch a bus to sleep... Will catch the Dream train some other day, probably tomorrow ;-)

What's the Time?

When you're important to another person, that person will always find a way to make time for u. No excuses, no lies, no broken promises.

Wherever you go, Whatever you do... You take time to reach out to your loved ones... If someone doesn't reach out to you, then you probably didn't make it to their loved ones list!

An accurate forecast!

Cancer : Daily

A very hectic day for you! Today, you may have too much work to do, and taking even a coffee break may not remain an option. You will be forthright in dealing with issues and nothing will escape your sharp observation. You will be able to manage your work well, and finish it on time.

So true!

Expectations - aisa maine socha

A great weekend trip to Deception Pass with sunny weather, and a with good friend, his wife & 5 month prince charming. On our way back, I noticed we were changing lanes on the freeway at 60 miles/hr, suddenly to realize we were not changing lanes but my friend
who was driving had fallen asleep!!! ... Within a minute of commotion everything was back to normal and I had a big sigh of relief and I guess I am scarred for life & will be always attentive when someone else is driving...

I only "expected" that my friend will never sleep on the wheel... I guess, all accident victims who survive to tell the tale say that they never "expected" the other car to hit them.

Last Friday, my teammate dressed up in shorts & cycled up to office. It turned out to be highest rainfall ever recorded in Seattle & poor guy had to drive back on his cycle. He never "expected" weather to change so quickly!!

Obama's parents did not "expect" that their son would president of America nor did Osama's mom  "expect" that her son would be most wanted person on the planet!!

When Life is so unexpected, why do we have/set/assume expectations from others. You may love someone but it doesn't mean you start to "expect" that they would also love you back!.. It goes with Hate too, you may hate someone but they might be liking you.

Yaada yaada yaada... No matter how clear my thoughts are, heart still has a ray of hope. I am born with expectations and always finding ways to grow beyond others expectations but that doesn't mean I need to start expecting the same from others. Its like you
don't travel in 3AC expecting some hot one traveling with you, if it does happen the element of surprise wins over zero expectations...

Live with zero expectations from God, family, friends, wife, girlfriend s and everyone & everything else... Whatever good that comes your way will keep you happy!!

Hurt

Just because my eyes don't tear, doesn't mean my heart doesn't cry and just because I come off strong, doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.

I don't want to be sad!

I have the Power!!!...He-Man!!... Master of Universe!

No one can make me inferior without my consent, then how can I be sad when I don't want to. Sadness comes natural to me, so many reasons to be sad and very less chances to be happy.

Yet, I am not sad because of what I did then I guess I have no reason to be sad. You can be sad due to weather, work, family, bosses, girlfriend, wife, and of course yourself.

God knows why I am sad today, someone should be blamed!

Prayer

#Prayer - GOD when I lose hope,help me to remember that ur plans for my life are better than my dreams.

Ice Ice Baby!

Has it happened before ?

You are waiting at the bus stop and suddenly you see someone & your heart starts to sing. You want to go talk & know them more. Then the bus arrives and you are left with no choice but stare at them the entire journey, devising schemes on how to break the ice.

Next day, your eyes long to catch a glimpse of them. The bell rings in you when you like what you see and there is an adlerine rush when your eyes meet & you see a friendly smile. The dreams, plans continue on the bus ride as you silently gaze ...

Day 3 brings joy as you begin to talk, heart sings its heart out. You like every conversation you are having and are happy that bus is late giving a chance to know more. The bus arrives and the silent journey continues....

Then the ice breaks when you sit next to her in the bus and you never wish you broke the ice...

Experience always suggests not to break the ice but Dil kya kare... Bas gaata hai .... Ice Ice Baby!

Yeh Saali Zindagi!

Life sucks when you have a good heart. You help too much, trust too much, give too much, care too much, and love too much.

Sometimes, you need to let go and help yourself.

Not sure what my heart is looking for, Not sure what my mind thinks about,
Not sure what my life needs from me,

Yeh Saali Zindagi!

Jaane kise doondti hain nazarein,
Jaane kya soctha hai mann,
Jaane kyon pareshan hai dil,
Jaane Kahan hai apni manzil!

Yeh Saali Zindagi!

Khabi hasati hai,
Khabi rulati hai,
Khabi musukarakar hai,

Par saala kya doondti hai???

Yeh Saali Zindagi!

Specimen!

Mom always considered few including my dad as a specimen. A unique, one of a kind museum artifact who is different from rest of the crowd.

Today it feels like everyone is a Specimen. Each one has their own perception of life, view point as radical, different than everyone else. Probably, these imperfections bring people together.
Its like how someone new to our group feels out of place when we start talking about work and he seems lost in what we are discussing. This often prompts to stop discussing office talks outside your cubicle. Indirectly bringing out our creative, fun part to life.

What made me wonder about this now, is a paragraph from one of my favorite book "Monk who sold his Ferrari!". He said that you should read books as the problems you are facing now or going to face must been already someone's experience to which you can relate and ease you in solving your problems.... What's funny is that I am not able to use my own experience in solving, providing solace to self for things which I faced in past. No problems in life are same, what's the fun if you could refer a manual to solve all problems...

You are a specimen, So are your problems... Just face it!

Happy Mother's Day

When your mom is a glue holding the pieces together, you need to call her everyday & tell her that you love her and its your day Everyday!

It's not that I do it on purpose but I tend to take my mom for granted. No matter what time, day it is, without even knowing how her day has been, I am quite confident that she will be there to hear me out.

Her expectations have not been met by me most of the time but quite certainly, I have given her pleasent surprises. Today she expected me to call her but I did not. Mothers day has never been celebrated by us, we always felt it was a western influence and the entire event is a publicity gimmick.... Little did I know she expected me to wish...

More than wishing, I ended up troubling her with my thoughts which I just seem to ponder on...

When the world dedicates a day for every mother, the least you can do is to not ruin it for her!!! ...

Dil Chahta Hai!

Being content and being happy is different. You go out looking for chocolate lava cake but being content with lemon cake does not make you happy though you feel little satisfied that you were not completely disappointed.

Anything that you put your mind to completely and even your heart to it works wonders for your confidence and the results show. This is not limited to professional life and its applicable everywhere.

You meet someone, you like them. The likeness comes from their personality and your receptiveness of their signals. This stage of the game is played with your heart. When you wish to take this to the next level, your mind objects and creates a test plan. Your checklist might be complete but in the end its Dil Chahta Hai.
There are people you love even though you see imperfections in them and there are some you cannot even like them as your heart does not say so.

Life's like that, wherever, whatever you do, consult your heart. You cannot cheat it, not for very long. Don't just say you are sorry or you love them, until it feels right , until Dil Chahta Hai

Nothing lasts forever!

Nothing Lasts forever! ... My Life takes a sinusoidal curve once it feels I have enjoyed quite a bit of a straight path smooth drive... The carpet of comfort zone is pulled right away as I sit, sleep, lazy around in my carpet.

At each grade in my school, I met up with certain individuals who made an impact of my life and loved, admired the relationship/friendship. The feeling of someone there for you is quite a comfort! but as i try to be comfortable, life would have other plans...they just get transferred out of the school itself !.. a new year and again you make new friends and the cycle continues..

"a"Life seems like a movie reel being played one after the other.. a movie doesn't last a lifetime...it ends some time or the other.This is not restricted to any relationship/friendships alone!... every aspect of my life seems to have been scripted to present before me a new challenged and keep my life ticking! ...

This is not going to stop, its Life and all I need is the patience, courage to Get up everyday and face challenges thrown at me.

The dark phase is back, the smooth sail over calm waters end and brings rough tides probably some storm too!!... The roller coaster ride continues ....

SR2P - Anniversary & Wedding Wishes :)

They say a newly wed groom is less likely to wear a smile but rather be found yawning most of the while :) ..

As one celebrates an anniversary...another one starts his journey !

Marriage is not a ritual or an end. It is a long, intricate, intimate dance together and nothing matters more than your own sense of balance and your choice of partner...

Wishes to the new couple Sumesh & Shimna.... Anniversary wishes to Rajiv & Anita ! ....

may your love ...blah blah.......make your own wish...all i wish is you guys win some lottery & get rich ! ... yes, money does bring some amount of happiness !!!

btw, as we grow older... we meet new people, make new friends and we need to start remembering their birthdays...worse is when you get married (that's when you need to remember your spouse's granny or dog's b'day too... )...then they have kids, their b'day get added too .... soon, you will have too many dates to remember :P

for the sake of simplicity..since Rajiv got married twice, 27th & 29th (same wife!)...its ideal(no..decided) that we celebrate his Marriage anniversary on 29th Aug... we have 1 day less to remember and easy too and will be happy to wish Rajiv & Sum on the same day :) .....

just back wishing Sum on his wedding reception along with Shiv .. heading back to Hyd tommorow ..

its 4.5 out of 7 wickets down....the brave ones (Shiv & me) will hold fort as long as we can !! ...

Bode:2008

Bade:2008

Rajiv:2009

Sum:2010

Bond:2011

Shiv & me: Love is one long sweet dream, and marriage is the alarm clock ... lets snooze & sleep for some more time !

Rajiv: as usual... i spoke to your VM..his voice hasn't changed over the years... :@

Akele hain to kya ghum hai

Memories are the treasures that we keep,

Locked deep within the storehouse of our souls, 

To keep our hearts warm when we are Lonely....

Yet, memories alone can't get you out of Loneliness.... you need not be alone to feel lonely. Not sure what goes through this heart & mind but loneliness sometimes creeps up even in a crowded party. it feels as though your heart is missing someone, your eyes are looking out for someone and ears waiting to hear from them...

Yaddon Se Badli Koi Doulat Nahi Hoti,
Pass Rehna Hi Zarurat Nahi Hoti,
Duriya Kar Deti Hai Yadein Jinda, 
Varna Yaddon Ki Koi Kimat Nahi Hoti !

its quite crazy when you get into a situation like this...and god bless Dr.Martin Cooper ! ... Who ? .. the guy who invented Mobile Phone !!! .... just dial 10 digits and you know your troubles are going to be answered....

no matter how far you are, just a few mins talk and just hearing out from your best bud and recharge you instantly !!! ... you cannot pour your heart out with everyone but there is some magic in the words that you hear from them and frankly i am not sure how that works.... i am all here sulking about something going wrong and i know the words that can bring me back .." this might not have worked for the good, you gave your best, there is something in-store better for you....etc .. etc" but yet until i hear this from someone close to me, it does not seem to calm me down... 

there is definitely some magic in friendship... you can be sitting all alone in an island yet feel happy to hear from someone whom you know cares for you.... or sulk deep into that island when you can reach them !!

“We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone.”

crazy mind and a crazier heart....both have an extra amount of A.I and make me play around. its only at the end, when i do a post mortem i realize that solution was in my own hands... oh boy! ..thats life... either you go with the wind, sail as the river takes you or stop, think and try to take your own stand....

destiny, time, life.. all in your own hands... 

as they say.... Dil par mat le, Haath main le le !!!

Apart
© Nyhc
we've always been together,
we did everything with laughter,
we thought it was forever.

when I was in danger
you knew how to ease my fear,
you were always there to be my savior.

at first we were strangers,
until we became closer,
and now we are together.

but time flows like a river.
it became complicated and faster,
until we realized that we're older.

and that is what is keeping us apart,
I was here,
and you were there.

but I know we still care,
but our friendship slowly fades in the air,
how can it be so unfair?.

can "our past" be also called "our future?"
because I don't want to surrender
the memories we've shared together



Light A Candle
© J

light a candle,
see it glow,
watch it dance,
when you feel low,
think of me,
think of light,
I'll always be here,
day or night,
a candle flickers,
out of sight,
but in your heart,
I still burn bright,
think not of sadness,
that I'm not near,
think of gladness,
and joyous cheer,
I have not left,
I am not gone,
I'm here to stay
my dear one,
so when you light a candle
and you see it glow
and you watch it dance
in your heart you'll know
that I would never leave you