Sunday, October 10, 2010

Nothing lasts forever!

Nothing Lasts forever! ... My Life takes a sinusoidal curve once it feels I have enjoyed quite a bit of a straight path smooth drive... The carpet of comfort zone is pulled right away as I sit, sleep, lazy around in my carpet.

At each grade in my school, I met up with certain individuals who made an impact of my life and loved, admired the relationship/friendship. The feeling of someone there for you is quite a comfort! but as i try to be comfortable, life would have other plans...they just get transferred out of the school itself !.. a new year and again you make new friends and the cycle continues..

"a"Life seems like a movie reel being played one after the other.. a movie doesn't last a lifetime...it ends some time or the other.This is not restricted to any relationship/friendships alone!... every aspect of my life seems to have been scripted to present before me a new challenged and keep my life ticking! ...

This is not going to stop, its Life and all I need is the patience, courage to Get up everyday and face challenges thrown at me.

The dark phase is back, the smooth sail over calm waters end and brings rough tides probably some storm too!!... The roller coaster ride continues ....

Sunday, August 29, 2010

SR2P - Anniversary & Wedding Wishes :)

They say a newly wed groom is less likely to wear a smile but rather be found yawning most of the while :) ..

As one celebrates an anniversary...another one starts his journey !

Marriage is not a ritual or an end. It is a long, intricate, intimate dance together and nothing matters more than your own sense of balance and your choice of partner...

Wishes to the new couple Sumesh & Shimna.... Anniversary wishes to Rajiv & Anita ! ....

may your love ...blah blah.......make your own wish...all i wish is you guys win some lottery & get rich ! ... yes, money does bring some amount of happiness !!!


btw, as we grow older... we meet new people, make new friends and we need to start remembering their birthdays...worse is when you get married (that's when you need to remember your spouse's granny or dog's b'day too... )...then they have kids, their b'day get added too .... soon, you will have too many dates to remember :P

for the sake of simplicity..since Rajiv got married twice, 27th & 29th (same wife!)...its ideal(no..decided) that we celebrate his Marriage anniversary on 29th Aug... we have 1 day less to remember and easy too and will be happy to wish Rajiv & Sum on the same day :) .....


just back wishing Sum on his wedding reception along with Shiv .. heading back to Hyd tommorow ..

its 4.5 out of 7 wickets down....the brave ones (Shiv & me) will hold fort as long as we can !! ...

Bode:2008
Bade:2008
Rajiv:2009
Sum:2010
Bond:2011
Shiv & me: Love is one long sweet dream, and marriage is the alarm clock ... lets snooze & sleep for some more time !


Rajiv: as usual... i spoke to your VM..his voice hasn't changed over the years... :@

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Akele hain to kya ghum hai

Memories are the treasures that we keep,
Locked deep within the storehouse of our souls, 
To keep our hearts warm when we are Lonely....

Yet, memories alone can't get you out of Loneliness.... you need not be alone to feel lonely. Not sure what goes through this heart & mind but loneliness sometimes creeps up even in a crowded party. it feels as though your heart is missing someone, your eyes are looking out for someone and ears waiting to hear from them...

Yaddon Se Badli Koi Doulat Nahi Hoti,
Pass Rehna Hi Zarurat Nahi Hoti,
Duriya Kar Deti Hai Yadein Jinda, 
Varna Yaddon Ki Koi Kimat Nahi Hoti !

its quite crazy when you get into a situation like this...and god bless Dr.Martin Cooper ! ... Who ? .. the guy who invented Mobile Phone !!! .... just dial 10 digits and you know your troubles are going to be answered....

no matter how far you are, just a few mins talk and just hearing out from your best bud and recharge you instantly !!! ... you cannot pour your heart out with everyone but there is some magic in the words that you hear from them and frankly i am not sure how that works.... i am all here sulking about something going wrong and i know the words that can bring me back .." this might not have worked for the good, you gave your best, there is something in-store better for you....etc .. etc" but yet until i hear this from someone close to me, it does not seem to calm me down... 

there is definitely some magic in friendship... you can be sitting all alone in an island yet feel happy to hear from someone whom you know cares for you.... or sulk deep into that island when you can reach them !!

“We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone.”

crazy mind and a crazier heart....both have an extra amount of A.I and make me play around. its only at the end, when i do a post mortem i realize that solution was in my own hands... oh boy! ..thats life... either you go with the wind, sail as the river takes you or stop, think and try to take your own stand....

destiny, time, life.. all in your own hands... 

as they say.... Dil par mat le, Haath main le le !!!

Apart
© Nyhc
we've always been together,
we did everything with laughter,
we thought it was forever.

when I was in danger
you knew how to ease my fear,
you were always there to be my savior.

at first we were strangers,
until we became closer,
and now we are together.

but time flows like a river.
it became complicated and faster,
until we realized that we're older.

and that is what is keeping us apart,
I was here,
and you were there.

but I know we still care,
but our friendship slowly fades in the air,
how can it be so unfair?.

can "our past" be also called "our future?"
because I don't want to surrender
the memories we've shared together



Light A Candle
© J

light a candle,
see it glow,
watch it dance,
when you feel low,
think of me,
think of light,
I'll always be here,
day or night,
a candle flickers,
out of sight,
but in your heart,
I still burn bright,
think not of sadness,
that I'm not near,
think of gladness,
and joyous cheer,
I have not left,
I am not gone,
I'm here to stay
my dear one,
so when you light a candle
and you see it glow
and you watch it dance
in your heart you'll know
that I would never leave you

Friday, August 6, 2010

Cribbing!

It's me who is my enemy,
Me who beats me up,
Me who makes the monsters,
Me who strips my confidence.

It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not....



I love to read books, i used to read book every night , until few months back where for some reason i stopped... need to start cultivating the habit again. Read all kinds including Monk who sold his ferrari, Shantaram, Alchemist, most of the work of Robin Sharma.. currently read Secret by Rhonda Bryne half way.... each time i get inspired and yet the inspiration last only for an hour or a day.. Later i am back to being myself - Cribbing !

Each time i crib and instantly i realize ... this is how Life's gonna be.. you may keep looking at people and hearing about their success stories and worry why you weren't there and fail to realize what you are having with you currently. This cycle might never end.... There are always people whom you think are living a better life but also there are people who are living miserable than you do... Life can best be enjoyed when you live each moment feeling happy, staying focussed on what you have or what you are instead of what you don't have and what you are not !!!

above all, guess I need to start respecting time ! ... it just doesn't wait for anyone.

EVERYONE WHO GOT WHERE HE IS..... HAD TO BEGIN WHERE HE WAS !!!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Blame Game - Find a scapegoat!

Its quite easy to blame someone and try to cover up. No matter how deep you were involved. When all the postmortem you can walk away, guilt free and happy that you didn't get banished for the act.

But what happens when something happens in your life... Whom do you blame ???

Things do happen - Good or Bad..that's the way life is and you are solely responsible for it. Its easy to accept things as they come and accept them Fate and sit quite and await as your destiny unfolds. But what seem to be happen is that these things keep on happening and you go offtrack from the road to Destiny.

Destiny is like a journey ... as long as you are doing good, you remain on the Highway..speeding ahead ...the moment you loose track you reach City roads and get struck in traffic. Its your will power to get out of the Traffic and hit the Highway again. The more you wander in the City traffic...more is your journey getting delayed... unfortunately, there doesn't seem to an end for this journey, it is an continuous road crossing countries and covering the entire planet..endless roads...

I seem to be stuck in City roads now and seem to be blaming circumstances, surroundings, everyone & everything ..just to remain guilt free and seems like Life has finally caught up ! ..its time i put pedal on the gas and zoom out soon to my highway !

There are dreams, plans and sometimes its quite better to keep them a secret and let them reveal themselves as time passes by. This seems to be quite a planned feature in my life. Anything that i publicize about:
  • something in my possession that i am proud of.
  • some goal which i feel i am going to get.
  • some relationship which i am happy to be part of.
  • something that i constantly feel happy and satisfied that i have in my possession.
etc etc....

It seems like the moment i tell everyone about any of the above, my sixth sense does give me a hint that this may not be case anymore. The dove might just escape from my cage ... and there it happens !... this is a repeated case... over and over....

keeping it a secret till it reveals itself is probably the best solution...

Wondering what this post is all about ... this is a recent getaway i was being happy about and told everyone i met.. felt happy that finally i am close to something i like...things going as planned ..etc..etc.. and finally it bombed today !! ... for a moment, it felt nothing short of an earthquake...
.. i had given my 70% but this wasn't enough... rest of 30% was destiny..probably a road not meant to be taken (something to cheer up !)

everything happens for a reason..let's wait & watch for this one !


Supposing you have tried and failed again and again.
You may have a fresh start any moment you choose,
for this thing we call "failure" is not the falling down, but the staying down.